Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 19 (5/28/2009)
21 May 09
Today I woke up tired. I’ve tried to go off one of my pain meds, but last night I was in pain enough so that I had to take three pills just to fall asleep. Speaking of sleep, my sleep doctor wants me to come in to see her in the morning. I think she wants to schedule another sleep study. The problem with the sleep study is I can’t sleep at the clinic, so I never fall asleep. It is very frustrating, and I hate the CPAP machine. Trying to look for the gratitude here. It’s not coming. Today was a pretty light day at the gym. My back is still bothering me, and I think I’m going to have to wait to taper off the one pain medicine. All I wanted to eat today was fried chicken. Read more
Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 18 (5/20/2009)
13 May 09
Thanks for a great meeting today. I had a busy day after seeing you. I went to the gym to do my cardio, then I went to an AA meeting with some friends. I need some help still with what to order going out to eat, since I think I’m doing the right thing but then my emotions can take over and I think that I can eat whatever I want. I guess I could do that again, but I want to stay on the path. I think I’m getting a cold, so I am feeling a bit congested.
Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 17 (5/11/2009)
06 May 09: I went to the gym this afternoon to do my cardio. I came home, ate some dinner, and started sorting and organizing. I recycled a bunch of newspapers and magazines tonight, which felt good to get rid of. I got a ride up to the retreat this weekend, so I will be leaving Friday afternoon. I am very excited to get out of town and be in the woods. It’s supposed to be a nice weekend, too! I hope that your week is going well.
Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 16 (5/03/2009)
28 Apr 09: I almost forgot to send this to you! I’m still up at this late hour. Started to listen to a radio program and realized what time it was. Anyway, I went to the gym. Later than what I wanted to do, but I got my butt there. There was a guy who was training someone. To me, he looked like someone who was never fat in his life and had no noticeable fat on him I told Ryan, the guy behind the desk. I said: “I don’t think I could ever look like that.” Ryan: “You know, we all have potential.”I know that it wasn’t potential that got my body to where it was before I met you. And I know that I am working very hard and trying not to have a set back. I’m trying to figure out a way so that reward is not the reason I am doing this. It’s very old programming, and I have to be patient. That’s the hard part.
Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 15 (04/27/2009)
21Apr09: I am not feeling well this evening. I am having cramping in my abdomen. I ate some fruit earlier today, and did not eat a full lunch,(string cheese and dried apricots). I ate dinner; I had a hamburger with Milton’s bread for the bun, baby spinach salad with some leftover brussels sprouts. For a snack I had a tangelo and an apple. I am trying to drink as much water as I can. If I am not better in the morning I will go to the store and maybe get some soup and cook some plain brown rice. I will let Billy know as well what’s going on. I had a good workout with Billy. He is preparing me for when he is away next week. Otherwise I enjoyed the beautiful weather we are having. I hope that your week is going well.
Commit to Fit: Kelley Clements Week 20 (10/30/2010)
Hi Everone!
So I went home to see my brother’s graduation (yay, Jason!) and while I was there I wanted to look for some photos I promised a friend I would post. I found out some stuff I hadn’t remembered.
For as long as I can remember I have thought of myself as fat. I remember being told I was a heavy baby because I was 8 or 10 pounds when I was born. I remember being put on weight watchers as a child. I was the youngest one in the meetings, the only child. I remember my grandmother looking at me when I was a child and telling an aunt that she could tell I had lost some weight because you could, “see it in the neck. It looks smaller.”
Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 14 (4/20/2009)
Today I was emotionally spent. I lost my cell phone, and that’s the way I primarily contact Billy and my bridge partner, Mikki. She was not at bridge last night, and had contacted me on my cell. I got to the gym, and was ready to leave before starting! It took all the energy I could muster to get to DIAKADI. Billy tried to understand why I was feeling so frustrated. I was ready to cry, and did not want to do that at the gym. But like you, he was gentle with me, and we ended up doing some yoga, which made me feel better. I went to Trader Joe’s, came home and had a nice lunch. Laid down for a while, and ate my dinner. I need to give me some slack and be more patient with myself. My cousin called me this evening. We’re going to see each other on Saturday. I look forward to talking to you tomorrow.
Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 13 (04/13/09)
I hope that your week is going well. When I got up this morning, I had a very hard time getting motivated to the gym to do cardio. I actually sent a text message to Billy telling him that I was having a hard time getting to the gym today. The thing was, I ended up talking to my friend Chris. He suggested that if I went in and did just one exercise, I would have accomplished more that staying home. It wasn’t until about 3:30PM when I got to DIAKADI. With Chris’ help, it got me to the gym. The thing was, Billy had left his cell phone in his office.
Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 12, prt.2
Met with Billy for workout at 11:15am today. He rescheduled our workout so that I could see my therapist (Finally!) He says I’m strong… and I guess I’m proving him right. I packed a quick snack and headed to see my therapist. He took his state boards on Monday, and passed. I really missed meeting with him, and shared with him my experiences handling it. We will be meeting again this coming Monday, returning to my normal schedule. The profound thing he said was his belief that I am detoxing from life, since the way I’m living my life has changed dramatically. (He may have a point) For most of the 50 minutes I met with him I cried. As you know, that is my way of coming to terms with intense emotion. It ended up being a good session.
Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 12 (4/08/2009)
I had a hard time getting out of bed. I was tired, but I did get to the gym. Billy had an intense workout waiting for me. He is a good listener. The rest of the day I tried to take good care of myself. Tomorrow I meet with you along with the respiratory therapist to check on my CPAP machine. I look forward to meeting with you tomorrow.