Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 27(8/2/2009)
27 Jul 09
I am sorry that I was not able to connect with you by phone today. I did get to bed late again last night, and I got out of bed in time to get to the gym to do my workout before seeing my therapist. In fact, I was running a bit late in getting to his office. I noticed when I was stretching at the gym that my leg looked inflamed. So I showed it to my therapist and then he suggested that I go see my doctor. Since my doctor works at a clinic, I was not sure if I would be seen today. Luckily, when I got to his office, he saw me and agreed to see me at the last minute. Last year, I had a similar infection. It was treated with a variety of antibiotics, but nothing worked. Finally I got a fever and ended up in the emergency room. I was admitted on my birthday for a week, having cellulitis and IV antibiotics being administered. So my doctor put me on Levaquin for one week. If the infection (its on my left leg) does not clear up in a week or I get a fever I need to contact him again. I am hoping that we caught this in time. I do not want to spend the week in the hospital. I am feeling OK. I don’t like taking more pills (I take 27 a day) but if it means being out of the hospital, then so be it. I went to bridge tonight with a different attitude. Billy gave me some suggestions and they helped me relax a bit. There are some good players, and I want to be one of them. Food went OK today. Let me know if you would like me to contact you tomorrow. I am going to the gym and also to a memorial service for my friend Barbara, whose father passed away last week. Thank you so much for your support.
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Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Last Month of Entries (August 2010)
09 Aug 10
Today is one of those dates where the number for the month, day and year are consecutive: 8/9/10. Anyway, there’s a lot going on. Billy texted me this morning to let me know that he was not feeling well. I ended up doing cardio in the building gym as we did not train today. I then went out to play bridge this evening with Richard (which was fun)but when I got home I received an email from Billy informing me that he was in the ER and about to get a CAT scan. Billy said in the email that he has kidney stones. So I won’t be training with him tomorrow either. Not sure how long it will take for him to pass the stones, and I can’t imagine the pain he must be in. I am praying for a swift and pain-free recovery. I decided that I am going to ask that my Columbia Application be considered for the Spring 2011 semester. I am also scared about my upcoming surgery. I know that it’s something that has been done before, just not on me! I can’t project anything about the future, for it only wrecks havoc on my present. However I’ve noticed that my food has been slippery. It has been hard not to stay within the 2000 calorie limit. I’ve got to get over this hump I’m on. I just need to let go. And I know that works. Pray that the fear that has been holding me back the past few days is lifted, and that I can finally relax and continue on this journey of discovery.
Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 26( 7/24/2009)
19 Jul 09
Today I had a hard time getting out of bed. When I finally got out of bed, I went downstairs to do some cardio. I meant to do the cardio on Friday, but never got around to doing it until today. When I got home from the gym, I took a shower and then had some problems with my TV. The remote stopped working. I was angry and frustrated with myself, and was ready to throw the TV out the window. Then I called Avi to help me out. He checked online and with his help was able to get the remote to work again. I watched two movies, both were great. Today I ate lighter than normal. I just was not hungry, and I’m worried about the weigh in on Wednesday. I would love to cross that line of 100 pounds, but would be grateful if I stay the same. I just need to let it go until I see you later in the week. Avi gave me some homework to do, so I hope when I get up in the morning I can get started on it.
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Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 25(7/18/2009)
12 Jul 09
Today I went to a friend’s birthday party. It was nice to spend part of the day with Ina and AJ. Then I went for a long walk. I stopped over at Andrew’s. We ended up having dinner. He is leaving tomorrow for the Carolinas. He has been such a support for me during this process. I know that I will be in touch with him, but it will not be the same as if he was in the city. Maybe it’s time to reach out to my other friends for support right now. It’s hard to ask for help. Today the food was OK. I hope that you had a nice weekend.
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Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 25 (7/12/09)
05 Jul 09
I got up very early this morning to watch the Wimbledon Men’s Championship game live from London. The match lasted 4 hours (a tournament record).I was rooting for Andy Roddick, but Roger Federer proved himself to be #1 in Men’s Tennis. While watching the match I did some cardio on the treadmill,(about 45 minutes). After talking to my friend who works at the doorman in the building, I ended up taking a nap in the afternoon. I woke up and went to the grocery store, came home and had some dinner. I lost my patience early in the evening yesterday and I called my friend to apologize. These friends have done so much for me and I wanted to make sure that we were OK. I see my doctor tomorrow. I know that I’ll be weighed. I am nervous about what the number will be, but I need to let any disappointment or expectation go. I do see my therapist after my doctor appointment. Billy texted me to let me know that they are extending their vacation by one day, so I will not be training with him tomorrow morning. I’m looking forward to our meeting on Wednesday. Read more
Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 24 (07/05/09)
27 Jun 09
Today was action packed. I ran a couple of errands before meeting my friend Avi for coffee and conversation. Then my friend Alan, Richard and I went for drinks at the Pilsner. (I had a Diet Coke)Came home and had a sandwich. I feel OK at the moment, and know that I better get to bed soon so that I can get a bit of sleep. Complete report tomorrow. I hope we run into each other at Civic Center.
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Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 23 (6/26/2009)
20 Jun 09
I hope that you are enjoying the weekend, and the pretty good weather. I spent the day walking a bit in my neck of the woods, ran a couple of errands, and then helped prepare for an event at the synagogue. It was a lovely potluck (all vegetarian)and everyone I think had a good time. It was a celebratory event, and I allowed myself to take home a slice of chocolate cake. I have not had the slice yet. I thought when I came home that I would eat it, but I thought maybe tomorrow would be better. Or I can throw it away. I’ll keep you posted on that. I did get to see my name in print. More on that next week.
21 Jun 09
I hope that your weekend was restful and enjoyable. I’ve been in a funk all day. It started late last night. I couldn’t sleep. I had to be somewhere early, and got up and ate breakfast. I then went to the Civic Center Farmers Market, and picked up some summer fruit. (The peaches are great)When I got home I had some soup and a sandwich. Then I took a nap, hoping that it would get me in a better space. All I did was toss and turn. I could not get comfortable. Then I got up and fixed some dinner. I made some chicken breasts(boneless, skinless), ate some leftover pasta, a salad with fresh spinach, and some raw carrots. I’m still feeling blue. I hope that when I see my therapist tomorrow afternoon I can get some clarity and move forward. All I want to do is eat, but I know that the “hunger” I am craving is not food. I wish that the hunger would stop.
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Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 21 (6/13/2009)
05 June 09
Today was spent running some errands. I got some things done, and also had time to do a cardio workout in the gym in my building. I was talking to a friend, who told me about a friend of his who lost a bunch of weight. She had to have surgery to remove the excess skin that was on her body. Then I started to think about my own body. I’ve heard of people having cosmetic surgery, but is this something on my horizon? I noticed that I ate more today than I usually do. I was feeling lonely. I was angry because of the way I felt I was being treated at a local store. I thought the woman was condescending. I know that I am supposed to find other ways to handle these feelings, today was just a day where I chose differently. I’ve been having headaches, which has been hard for me, especially when I try to fall asleep. It’s hard when I get into that lonely space, because it seems like I’ll be lonely forever. Anyway, I hope that you are having a nice visit with your family in Florida.
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Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 20 (6/04/2009)
29 May 09
Today I stayed in bed. I did not get to bed until very late. I am afraid that I am falling into an old habit again. Tonight may be another late one. I’ve got to get to bed earlier in the evening. I did my cardio today in the building gym. I used three different machines, and worked up a sweat. I’m going to DIAKADI tomorrow so that I can have my picture taken. I was chosen to be DIAKADI Client of the Month! I’ll pass on to you the questionnaire that they had me fill out that will be posted along with my picture. I was totally surprised by this. And also excited. Thank you for helping me get this award! My clothes are beginning to hang on me. Some friends have suggested that I throw a party to celebrate once I’ve lost 100 pounds. What are your thoughts about that?
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Commit to Fit: Kevin Johnson Week 22(6/19/2009)
14 Jun 09
Thanks for responding to my email so quickly. I chose not to open the package and I took the donuts downstairs and gave them to the overnight doormen and porters. When I asked them if they would eat them, they smiled and said yes. I told them I couldn’t eat them. I have ended communication with my family, probably for good. I no longer need their approval or love. Taking the donuts downstairs was hard, but you are right, I am strong. Thank you for your love and support. I am grateful. Enjoy the rest of your weekend.